I woke up a little while ago after spending the night in my
new home. Yes, I said it…my new home. It’s a rental and we’re back in the same
apartment complex we were in when we initially moved from Missouri to New York
but it’s a home and it’s ours. I signed the lease yesterday and the kids and I moved
minimal belongings with us, whatever we could get in our van, and spent the
night here. What a pleasure it is to have freedom and our own rules back again.
This has been almost two years in the making. Living in
friends’ basements and a homeless shelter just wasn’t cutting it but finally we
have a place to call home and we can get our lives back together. If you’ve
never been in our situation you won’t understand the stress we’ve been under
but that’s all ending now. Last thing to do is find friends and/or agencies to
help us get our belongings out of my friend’s basement and over here where it
needs to be so our home will be a home. I’m working on that as we speak.
You can’t imagine how excited I was to get the call on
Tuesday from the management office telling me my new address. I cried for so
long I didn’t think I could stop, especially since I’d called that morning and
they said it would be another week or two. But that call came in later in the
evening and it was cause for celebration. I called everyone I knew and posted
my good fortune on Facebook for all my friends to see. The outpouring of
congratulations and support was amazing. All my friends know how hard it’s been
for the kids and me and they were as overjoyed as I was to know that we finally
got what I’d been trying so hard for so long to get.
So far I don’t really think it’s sunk in with any of us but
I’m sure it will as the days pass and we get back to making a real home
together and getting our lives back on track. The feeling is almost indescribable
– FREEDOM is all that comes to mind right now. No more tiptoeing around other
people, no more following house rules that we never had, no more feeling like
we’re invading the lives of our friends. The sense of relief is awesome!
I’ll be back here more often now, especially since I’ll have
my cable hook-up soon. I can’t wait. And then I can get into what I’ve wanted
to discuss for so long, and that’s the life I’ve lived for the past two years.
You’ll know everything and I won’t be holding back. For now I’m going to get my
day started and see what develops. Take care and I’ll be back shortly.
Until next time…peace to all.

You certainly exude a lot of positive energy! Ill bet you light up a room when you walk in! Its really rare to meet someone who handles adversity with such grace and inner strength the way you do.
ReplyDeleteA persons aura is contagious and whether you know it or not, your entries really do inspire others. Just sayin' :)
Thank you so much for the compliments. I don't know about lighting up a room but I do try to stay positive. Doesn't always work but I do try. I know about auras, I've got a friend who makes a living teaching about pure positive energy and Law of Attraction. She's my mentor, so to speak, and helps to keep me on track. :)
ReplyDeleteGood for you. Many underestimate the value of effective support corridors.
ReplyDeleteOn a side note: The unusual heat in the central States
must be stifling! Ill stay north, thanks :)
Support is what life is all about. It takes a bit of courage and swallowing of pride to ask for help but it's there for the asking. And, yes, the heat is oppressive but we're hanging in there. :)
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