Refusing a Funk

I haven’t been here in over a week, sorry. I’ve been busy. In my last post I said I was moving all my stuff in the weekend of July 1^st but that didn’t happen. We only made two trips before gas and funds ran out but we got all our furniture in that weekend so we all had beds to sleep in and places to put our clothing. We did get all the rest of our stuff the following weekend when a friend helped with his truck and trailer. So now all of our belongings are with us and my house is a wreck. Pleh!

Yes, we have beds set up; yes, we have dressers, the kids do anyway, I’m using a tall bookshelf for my clothing. We have TV, internet and a house phone since Comcast was here last Friday and we have TVs in the bedrooms and the living room. I still don’t have a dining set so we eat on one of the huge end tables in the living room; and I have boxes all over the place simply because I don’t have all the storage space I need as far as furniture is concerned. I need more shelves and a desk. I’m living with the clutter but I’m trying to keep it arranged so it’s not bothersome to me. So far so good.

In the meantime, I just spend my days opening boxes, hanging pictures and trying to make our home a home.  I’m waiting for my funds to build up again so I can get back on track with bills and household expenses and trying to stay positive rather than falling into a funk. I had a birthday yesterday and it was just like any other day around here other than all the birthday wishes I got from my friends on Facebook. It was a day spent trying to stay out of the aforementioned funk since I was expecting a refund check from my car insurance and my food stamp card to be able to buy groceries.

Neither arrived in the mail although I’d been told they were both on their way. I called the insurance company about the check and was told that, since it’d been sent almost a month ago, they were going to put a stop payment on it and issue me a new one, and that it would take about a week to get here. I called DSS to find out about the food stamp card and was told my food stamps were only approved yesterday morning so it would take about five days for me to get it. Seriously!? Does anyone realize that kids can’t be fed with no money on hand? I guess they don’t and they don’t care either. So, tomorrow morning we’re off to the food pantry to get some groceries to last us for a few days until the money I am expecting arrives.

See why I’m trying to stay out of a funk? The way I see it is that I just have to stay positive and know that everything will fall into place when it’s supposed to and how it’s supposed to. I know it will, I just really hate having to hear my kids complaining that they don’t have any snacks and that I can’t buy them an occasional treat. They’re learning that they can’t have everything all the time and that we don’t always get what we want when we want it but it still hurts me to see their sad faces. I guess we all feel that way as parents but sometimes it’s just the way it is.

So here I sit, waiting for the Universe to yield to me and trying to make the best of what I have and know that something better is on the way. I have faith and I’m cheering up as I write this. Why? Because it always feels better to see my worries written down; it just reinforces that they’ll all be gone in a very short time. I know it and now you do too. I’m gonna sign off for now, though, and just relax a bit in front of the TV but I’ll be back shortly and I guarantee I’ll be in a much better mood.

Until next time…peace to all.