Positive Shift in My Energy

Today was much better than yesterday. It didn’t actually start out that way – Zach was talking over me every time I said something and Dolly wouldn’t get out of bed to get ready for school. However, we got past those issues and the day shaped up nicely. I’ll tell you why, since you asked.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. We meet people for a reason; we bump into someone on the street because we’re supposed to; we dial a wrong number, miss a bus, leave the house late for work all because it’s cosmically supposed to be that way at that moment. I don’t know if you agree or not; this is just my belief system. Anyway, you all know that I’ve been trying to find work without much success. It is what it is. I can’t change it. (Think “Serenity Prayer” here.) I’m still looking, regardless.

Today I decided to drive Dolly to school. Usually Kara drives her because she goes that way to work, but I got a whisper in my ear this morning that I needed to drive Dolly to school to speak to my Family Liaison, Jane. I don’t know why; but the feeling was that I could ask for a job application there. That would be convenient since I’d be there to drop Dolly off and pick her up in the afternoon. Whatever; I’d do what I needed to do. We got to the school and I took Dolly to the playground where her classmates were playing. As I rounded the corner back toward Jane’s office, I saw her in the hallway and we started chatting.

I asked her about an application and she said that the only work available there is per diem work. Then she checked with the Director, Agatha, to confirm that. Yes, the available work is per diem stuff, substituting where needed when someone is out. That’s fine with me. So I took the application and Agatha, Jane and I all started chatting about the lack of work available and how long I’ve been looking and how hard it is to apply for jobs today. Then Jane went back to work and Agatha and I chatted a little while longer. Mind you, this is the first time I’ve ever spoken to Agatha and Dolly started in the school in October.

We were reminiscing about how, when we were younger, all we had to do was walk into a place, get an application, fill it out, and speak with a manager. We either got the job or we didn’t. Today, with applications and resumes being sent online, there is no way for a prospective employer to know anything about the person attached to them. Just because I may not have the qualifications the prospective employer is seeking doesn’t mean I can’t learn them in a day or two but he or she won’t know that about me because he or she refuses to meet with me simply based on what’s on my resume. It sucks but it’s true.

I’m off on a tangent again, sorry. So, we were talking, and I’d mentioned earlier in the conversation that I’ve got a Bachelor degree in Paralegal Studies but all the attorneys want experience, blah, blah, blah…the same shit I’ve mentioned to you all before. Agatha agreed about the Catch-22 and suddenly started telling me about a friend of hers whose husband is a paralegal and does the work freelance. It’s a small business, and not his only source of income, but it’s doing very well, according to Agatha. I told her that I also want to do the work freelance, eventually, but still need experience first so attorneys will be able to trust that I know what I'm doing.

So I asked Agatha if she could get the guy to call me, not so I could take his business, but so I could find out what attorneys are looking for as far as experience and other work-related skills and tasks. She said she’d speak with her friend to see if it would be okay for me to call him and (I got another whisper in my ear) I suddenly suggested, instead, that she, Agatha, take my number and give it to her friend, so if the husband wants to call me, he can. She agreed and took my info, we said our goodbyes and I was off – with a really uplifted spirit.

I don’t know why I needed to drive Dolly to school, why I needed to ask for a job application at the school, why I needed to spend so much time chatting with Agatha, why she told me about her friend’s husband, or why I needed to offer her my information to give to him. Maybe he'll call me and something will fall into place as far as work for me; maybe not. I don't know. I do know that everything that happened this morning was out of my regular routine but it all needed to happen today, just the way it happened. There was a reason for it all.

I guess my energy is shifting; things in the Universe are aligning for me, and my boat is now floating downstream instead of me fighting the upstream current. That’s the only way I can look at it. Maybe you’ll say it’s all coincidence but I don’t believe that. We’ll just have to agree to disagree otherwise. And that’s okay. It is what it is. In the morning, I’m going to do things the way I regularly do them and see what else develops for me. I’m not going to stop looking for work, but I will watch for signs to see which direction I need to turn at any given moment. Things are getting better and will continue to do so. The Universe will yield to me.

Until next time…peace to all.