Out With the Negative; In With the Positive

You know, I’m really tired of being judged. I’m tired of all the derogatory comments made by others about me, especially when they have no clue what’s going on in my life. I’m thinking that you need to mind your own business and stop worrying about mine. You don’t know anything about what’s going on in my head, my heart, or my home so keep your comments to yourself and keep your nose out of my business. With that said, I’m choosing not to dwell on the negative bullshit people think they have a right to throw at me these days. Instead, I’m going to concentrate on the positive things going on in my life.

I’ve got three beautiful children whose smiles and antics light up my world. Ty spends his time drawing the most amazing pictures. They’re so colorful and imaginative and I can’t wait until I can get him into an art class. He’s going to go far with his artwork. I’ve already said that but I’m saying it again. Dolly is just too cool; she’s amazing for a four year old. On the way home from her school today I was flipping radio channels and passed by something that she wanted to hear. Suddenly she yelled, “Wait, go back!! That’s Hannah Montana.” I was flipping pretty quickly so I really doubted it. I went back three channels and, sure enough, there was a Miley Cyrus song on the radio. I asked her how she knew and she just replied, “Uh, the voice.” Incredible.

Zach is just a clown. He’s always got a smile and a joke of some sort. He’s also got a really big heart. He loves to give hugs and kisses (all three of them do) and he can be a real mush sometimes. Not a day goes by that he doesn’t walk up to me, out of the blue, and give me a big squeeze around my middle and a squishy kiss on my cheek and tell me he loves me. Priceless!!

As much as I don’t like the holidays, I’m beginning to get more cheerful about them. Not because I want to go shopping and fight with people in the stores, but because the Christmas songs on the radio are just really nice, and sometimes fun. I also like looking at the decorations people have on their houses. The best part, though, is the thought of seeing the kids’ faces when they see what Santa brings. They’ll be with Paul this year for Christmas but Santa will still arrive here on Christmas Eve, as usual, and will leave them gifts for their return. I just can’t wait to see them smile; it takes my breath away.

Then, my favorite holiday arrives – New Years Eve. It’s my favorite day of the year. Why? Because everything starts fresh and new the next day; and I have every intention of making next year better than this one. Kara and I are making changes around the house and getting things organized. The kids will continue getting along better, and I know that one of the resumes I’ve been sending out will be answered by a really great attorney who can use the skills I have to offer as a paralegal.

Things are going to be big next year, I can feel it. Life as I’ve known it for the past five years is about to change for the better and nobody can tell me otherwise. I have goals and dreams that I intend to fulfill. I heard, on the radio today, somebody (I forget who) wishing everyone a Happy Holiday Season, along with this quote: “Let’s reflect on the past, enjoy the present, and dream of the future.” That’s exactly what I’m doing only I have every intention of making my dreams come true. My life is wonderful and it’s getting better every day; and I wish the same for all of you.

Until next time…peace to all.