Let's Get a Move On

I have been sitting here for almost a half hour trying to figure out what I want to write about tonight. I know I don’t have to write every night but it does help relax me, except when I get writer’s block – like tonight. There are so many thing going through my head that I can’t really separate them. I’m thinking about the boy, Pete, from my post last night; the incident involving the police; the fact that, immediately after the police officer left his house, Pete’s grandfather came outside and started screaming at the mother of the little girl involved in the head banging incident as if she, and all the rest of us “bitches” as Grandpa called us, were scheming and out to get his precious grandson; the interview I gave for the school district as a school volunteer; watching my daughter’s class release the butterflies they grew; my aching elbow; my desire to move from this pit to a better location so I can work and make a life for my kids…I guess I’m just thinking about so much that I can’t focus on any one thing. Don’t ya just hate that?

That tells me that I won’t fall asleep as easily as I usually do because my mind will continue spinning in every imaginable direction. I’ll find something on TV that will help me relax, I’m sure. I’ll just look for something I’ve seen dozens of times; that’s sure to work. I don’t even know why I’m thinking about that now since I’m not close to going to bed. I am tired and it’s muggy as all get out in here but I’m not turning on the A/C yet. It’s not even summer and I refuse to begin upping my electric bill this early in the season. I didn’t run the A/C but for maybe a week last year. Fans worked for us and I have to keep the door open during the day while the kids are outside anyway. I just don’t like being sticky and feeling puffy; I can tell my hands and feet are swollen. Blech! Do you think if I stopped eating all these sunflower seeds I wouldn’t be so puffy? That might work, huh?

I’ve also go to get back to rebounding. I’ve stopped and I feel gross. I know I’ve been eating way too much and need to get back on the healthy track to take some of this weight off of me. Starting tomorrow that’s a must on my to-do list. Quite honestly, if I had something to do during the day I wouldn’t sit here snacking on nuts and seeds. Perhaps if the Universe would put the vibe out there that I need housing in MD, and perhaps if one of the places in MD called me with a vacancy, I could begin packing. Then I’d have lots to do during the day and the weight would just fall off – like magic. I’ve got enough packing to lose 20lbs, at least. Plus, I don’t mind packing and, if I do it myself, I can tell what is in each and every box in my house. I just want things to move forward a little more quickly than they are.

I’ve got my car tagged; that check I was awaiting finally arrived today; I’ve put my name on the only available housing waiting list in MD; and now I’m just waiting, waiting on them to call me back. I’ve called them once a month since I gave them my name and I’m tired of waiting now. I want that phone call and I want to begin packing my belongings. I want to have something fabulous to look forward to and I want my kids to be excited about this change for us. We all can’t do that, though, unless I get the housing. Is the Universe listening? Is the positive energy flowing once again? I can only do so much on my end; I’m putting out all the positive energy I can; the rest is up to the Universe. It’s not like I can bribe it or anything, I just have to wait, wait, wait, and hope my wait proves fruitful.

I was never one for a lot of patience when it came to waiting on adults or higher powers or whatever. I have patience with kids, to a point; if it’s something they should already know patience is a no-go. I still have trouble with patience. I put this move thing out to the Universe months ago, along with the car tagging issue. I just now got the car tagged. Does that mean I have to wait another three years before I’m going to get to move out of this State? I really hope not because I won’t be able to last here another year. I’ve got to get out of here, and back to the East Coast, and I have to do it this summer. So, everybody, all together now, on three…1, 2, 3…”Beth needs to move her kids to MD this summer to make a better life for them all. The Universe needs to help that move happen. Positive energy needs to be spread far and wide for this. Starting now, that energy is working where it should and Beth and her kids will be in MD before the next school year starts.” {Positive energy, positive energy, positive energy…} Thanks everyone, I appreciate the assistance.

Until tomorrow…peace to all.