It’s late tonight. I was watching a movie that I hadn’t seen before and couldn’t get my attention away from it. It was “Taken” and it was awesome; I didn’t move for the entire hour-and-a-half it was playing. That’s how I am when I’m watching a movie, especially one that’s really good and that I haven’t yet seen. Don’t bother me, don’t talk to me, and don’t get in my way. I’ve even hung up on friends who’ve called me during new movies, if I’ve actually answered the phone, that is. I hang up politely, of course, after I make sure there’s an emergency-type of situation, “I’m not talking to you right now, I’m watching (movie).” Then I hang up the phone. I’ll sit and stare at the screen, without movie or even taking a bathroom break. I would smoke, though. It was like reflex or something that, when there was a lull in the movie, or I just felt the urge, I’d light up.
I didn’t do that tonight, however. I actually watched the movie without ever even wanting a butt. How cool is that? Maybe it was the fact that the movie was just that good. Could be; but, it could also be that I’m actually getting the nicotine out of my system and am finding other things to do rather than smoke. I’m so proud of me!!! I wasn’t even that cranky today, and I didn’t really do anything all that productive other than laundry. Last week I would have had a cigarette lit in the ashtray on the table next to me while I folded clothing and would have dragged on it every few items or so. Not today, I just had my glass of water (which is not unusual for me) next to me and watched a movie while I folded.
Today was an easy day. I’m guessing they all won’t be as easy but that’s to be expected. I was under the impression that quitting cold would cause a lot of withdrawal and anxiety in a person. Either I’m different from most people or the real withdrawal hasn’t hit me yet. I’ll wait and see what happens over the next couple of weeks and will fill you in on that issue. Tomorrow is a week, though, since I’ve quit for the second time in two weeks. I made it further this week than I did last week, and I’m really happy about it. I feel better; I’m getting into my yoga on a daily basis, plus jogging on the rebounder. I’m feeling really good physically. I’m actually on the phone with Ellen while I’m drafting this; she called to fill me in on the great night she had while she was out with some friends. She’s a blast and has me laughing it up. So, I’m signing off quickly and in a good mood. Until tomorrow…peace to all.
Where Have I Been?
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It's hard to believe it's been so long since I've posted anything....but
that's how I roll. It's been about a year. So much has happened in a
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11 years ago
Good for you Beth. And I'm proud of you too. I remember when my Mother-In-Law quit she chewed on those coffee straws. She said it gave her someting to do with her hands.
ReplyDeleteShe also stopped doing many things that she was used to doing while she smoked. For weeks she didn't sit at her table on the phone gossiping with her friends. It was then that she would be burning up the phone with gossip and smoking like a chimney. She didn't talk on the phone for months. Until she got that under control.
Going to the bar was another. But many states are going smoke free. Michigan did, yesterday. All public places are now smoke free, yay! I know you aren't one to go our to bars etc. but everyone has their thing they do while they smoke. Those are the triggers to look for. And it looks like you're doing a GREAT job.
I'm so proud of you. And please don't take that in a condescending way. I'm really proud of you. It's hard to quit and girl, that just tells me how strong you are. That strength is going to be what pulls you through the tough things in life....like moving across country.
Have you had luck with a moving company. Maybe you could give me some details and I can see what I can dig up. The head-honcho and CEO of Two Men And A Truck International is on my friends list. You'll see her...Mary Ellen Sheets. I just wonder what else I could drum up to help you. Send me an email with your details again ok. I want to try to help you.
Love,
Your friend Tracy
No, Tracy, I don't go to bars - not anymore, anyway; and I don't hve anything to replace the cigarette - no straws, toothpicks or the like. I'm just trying to find things to keep me occupied without substituting one habit for another.
ReplyDeleteHaven't found any luck with a moving company yet, but I've also not secured housing. That has to come first and foremost. When I'm ready with a place to live, I'll let you know and we can move forward. Thanks.