NtT - One Week

Today is one week since I’ve had a cigarette. I actually made it seven days. Should I say I can’t believe it? No, because I knew I could do it if I put my mind to it. I’ve made a lot of changes this past week and it was hard to keep them all going on a steady basis, but I did. Not only did I give up smoking, I also got on a regular exercise regimen (I’ve lost two pounds so far), I started a new discipline technique with the kids, and I’ve begun practicing more meditation and mindfulness. So far, things are getting better; the kids still aren’t used to the new technique and do blow up at times, but not as often as they did. That’s progress if you ask me. Progress means that, since things are changing, I won’t be blogging solely about the non-smoking issues either; I’ll bring up any if and when they arise, but I’ll be here talking about anything and everything that comes to mind.

I’m on a forward path now in my life. I don’t feel as if I’m stagnating. I mean, nothing happens over night but at least I’m moving in a positive direction. Now that I’ve got the energy flowing again, I need to make some more changes. I think I mentioned that I want to move to the DC metro area after school ends for the kids this summer. I need to secure some type of HUD housing but am having difficulty because nobody can give me a straight answer when it comes to waiting lists. I’m not worried about it, though, because if I’m supposed to be there, I will be. Right now I’m just grateful for what I’ve got.

I’ve got a place for my kids and me to live, money to pay our bills, food on the table, and our major necessities are being met. I’ve even managed to give the kids a little extra when they want it. That’s not bad for a single (divorced) mother who is supporting her kids with child support alone right now. I’ve done a great job over the past five years and I’ll keep doing a great job. Once we get moved, things will get even better for us. I’ve been a stay-at-home mom since Tyler was born, almost nine years ago, and I miss working, especially now. I literally have nothing to do during the day (I think I mentioned that in a different post). I went to school to get my degree and now I want to put it to good use.

Being a paralegal was never a dream of mine but when I was going through my divorce I studied the law to find out my rights and learned a lot that I, and most other people, didn’t know. Since I’m good at research and I like to help people, especially when it comes to legal issues, a degree as a paralegal should come in handy. Granted, I’m not an attorney so there are limits to what I can do, but since I was given so much help during my times of need (still get help, too), I want to be able to give back to others in my same situation. That’s why a move to the DC area would be beneficial.

I know the move will happen; I just need to open myself up to the possibilities and see them as they come rather than looking past them or not seeing them at all. Tomorrow I’ll be back on the phone calling different housing establishments in MD to see if any have opened their waiting lists recently. I just need to think positive and let the positive energy flow. For now, I’m going to sit and relax a bit to clear my mind and just let in whatever knocks; and wait for a new day and new opportunities. Until tomorrow…peace to all.