Six Weeks

I didn’t get to blog last night because the blogger site was down for whatever the reasons were. I tried again this morning and got the same result. I did write something for last night and I even saved it but felt there was no need for me to post it today because it was just me bitching about my neighbors again. That wasn’t all, though, it was also about my phone call to Ellen after some of the problems with the neighbors occurred. I told her that I don’t want to be on bad terms with my neighbors but it seems like I have no choice. Ellen’s reasoning, “Because you have shitty neighbors.” That I do. The remainder of our phone call was just us laughing at all the crap that we discuss: my shitty neighbors, goofy friends, my kids and their meltdowns, the difference between adult butt wipes and diaper wipes, those types of things. Yep, we discuss anything and everything.

That’s not why I’m posting this afternoon, though. The post I wrote last night I’ve already dumped because it’s delayed and wouldn’t make any sense; so I wanted to make a quick post to mark another milestone in the nicotine-free life that is now mine. TODAY MAKES SIX WEEKS SINCE I’VE QUIT SMOKING!!! I’m so proud of me. How do I feel? Not the greatest. I’m at the end of a cold that just keeps hanging on; my nerves are on edge all the time; I’m constantly craving a smoke (but don’t get any) and the smell of someone else smoking, to me anyway, is almost yummy, especially at peak craving times.

I know that, eventually, the cravings will dissipate and I know the smell will eventually not be so heavenly. That’ll take time but time isn’t going as fast as I’d like it to right now. I’m doing okay with the quitting and still have the two unopened boxes of quit smoking gum on top of my fridger. They’ll sit there, too, because I can’t see replacing one habit with another. That just doesn’t make sense to me especially when the Quit Line people told me that I have to diminish my use of the gum to fully get the nicotine out of my system. That’s what I did with the smokes before I actually quit – I diminished the number I smoked so the nicotine would gradually be reduced before I quit altogether. It’s the same principle with the gum, right? I think so.

Anyway, I just wanted to mark my six-week achievement and give myself a pat on the back. I’ll write again tonight and get things back to the way they should be.

Until next time…peace to all.