My Apologies

I can’t believe it’s been six days since I’ve blogged. What the fuck is up with that? I’ve just been busy trying to get the boys’ room together since I’m not really sure when they’ll be home. According to Paul he was going to bring them home around the 13th or 14th but when I spoke with him this past Sunday we got into a pseudo-argument; he was yelling at me although I never raised my voice. Whatever. I called to talk to the kids when I’d found out that he kept them up until midnight the night before. Dolly and Zach were both on the phone crying hysterically that they wanted to come home. Conversation ensued between Paul and me about whether or not he should bring the kids home and he ended up calling me an asshole to which I politely responded that he would not speak to me that way; I told him to do what he needed to do with the kids, I wished him a good day and hung up on him.

Ellen and I had been looking on Craigslist for a set of bunk beds and suddenly realized we needed to find one right away. We did but that’s a story in and of itself which I will post tomorrow, possibly. I really didn’t want to speak to Paul again but called the next day to find out whether or not he was bringing the kids home or if they were staying for more visiting time. He said they were staying so Ellen, Sonny and I have been spending our time getting the boys’ room together since then. All that’s left is to get their toy boxes up but that doesn’t have to be done yet; before Friday so it’s no rush. Otherwise I’ve just been hanging out.

Ellen and I sit and talk and yesterday we had a short cry fest. She got a text from someone talking about a song they claimed Ellen’s late husband liked but it was the wrong song so Ellen played me the right one. Then she played others so the two of us sat together in the kitchen listening and crying. Don’t judge; sometimes we need it. Her husband died just before Christmas in 2008 and she’s still going through the grieving process. I’m just glad I can be here to cry with her rather than having to talk long distance over the phone. I can cry, too, now and not have people on “my end” asking me what’s wrong. Not that it’s any of their business but they still felt the need to ask. Fuckers.

In any case, she and I sit and chat, laugh, cry, whatever. I think I mentioned in my last post that she, Sonny and I played games on Saturday. That was fun since I haven’t played a game in a really long time. We laughed and had a blast. Sonny and I still watch TV every night which is why I haven’t been here; I just keep forgetting but I promise that I’m going to set aside time every day now to make my posts. I don’t want anyone to feel left out of the loop. Last night Sonny and I went to a movie since Ellen was having a meeting here with some of her musician friends.

Mind you, I haven’t been in a movie theatre in a very long time and the last time I went it was to the dollar theatre to take the kids to see a movie that had been released months earlier. So Sonny and I went to see “The Other Guys” with Mark Wahlberg and Will Ferrell. That was after we had dinner at Houlihan’s. It was almost like a real date. Since I’ve never been on a real date before it was pretty cool. But I stray again from the main point. We went to see the movie and it was hilarious. I highly recommend it. Not that I’m a movie critic or anything but I did laugh all through the movie. You can take my opinion or not; it’s up to you. And if you see the movie and don’t like it, you can’t blame me. I’m not telling you it’s a must-see, just that I liked it. It was a good night all around.

Today I didn’t do much of anything but I did decide that I’ve been neglecting my readers so I will be back tomorrow and the next day, and so on, and so on… I’ll keep everyone in the loop of my life and I did say I’d tell the bunk bed story tomorrow. It’s a tear-jerker so make sure you have a box of tissue ready when you read it. Alright, you may not be a crier but I am and I did cry; and it’s my story. Go figure. Anyway, I’m outie for now but I’ll be back soon.

Until next time…peace to all.